On a positive note before I take your morale down with me talking to you about my relationship to relationships, I enjoyed VENOM and I made a video about it on my Youtube channel MOVIE MESSENGER: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmcRNqAscB4
I don’t have enough distance from my own life to assess whether I am stuck on a loop of my own self persuasion. I seem to give my self excuses for not being in a relationship going so far as questioning the purpose of a relationship.
Then I catch myself doing what I criticize about most people who are in a relationship. I said in one of my previous post: I feel like people see relationships as a means to an end, not an end in itself. So by questioning the purpose of a relationship I am making the same mistake.
OK then I can be in a relationship as long as I cherish the relationship and its intrinsic value. But I am at a moment in my life where I don’t see what another person (woman) can bring to my life. Of course, other than sex.
But if I engage in a relationship with only sex in mind, it’s not fair for the girl. Because everyone has expectations in relationships.
Yes but how I can find a girl if I don’t try?
I lost the motivation to try for a long time, I don’t know if it’s because creating art has given me enough fulfillment or because I haven’t met an interesting girl who was interested in me for who I was, maybe both.